March 17, 2020
I took him for granted. We take each other too much for granted. I am on leave today due to Covid-19. We are in lockdown because we don’t want to voluntarily pause our own wants for the life of someone we may or may not know.
I was too wrapped up in my own thoughts, concerns, anxieties, projects, and desires to see that my son was dying. That my son, this beautiful flower, was wilting.
I walked by him as if he were a lily, beautiful, but hardy and persistant. I thought he would always be there, growing back after hardships like perenials come back spring after spring. But that wasn’t so.
Elliot was an orchid that lived for 18 years until he was choked out by the worries of the world. The pain around him had slowly been poisoning him. Now, I can only look at pictures of him or watch other people with their orchids.
I”m following your site. Dad